Why now? Why are we heeding the call now? Why is God calling us now? Why are we going now?
Some may say we are running. When the going gets tough, the tough get going mentality. Some may say we are just bored. Others may say this just isn’t God’s timing.
But we know, that we know, that we know that this is the time. This is it. God is calling us to GO. Not next year, not after we served our ministry jail-time (aka pew-warming), not when Madi is older, not when we have our Bible degrees and 2 years of full time ministry experience, not when it makes sense, not when finances are good… NOW.
God has been prepping us and stirring our hearts in this direction for almost 2 years (ever since Mike lost his job)… but we have filled our minds, hearts, and schedules with SO much stuff we couldn’t hear Him clearly.
This season is the first time we have been able to be still long enough to hear Him. The first time we have been able to be quiet and truly wait upon Him. The first time we have been able to spend time in His presence without the distraction of an insane schedule. There is no youth meeting, no fine or fun arts practice, no worship team song to learn, no practice to attend, no early morning wake up on a Sunday, no youth function, no worship time to prep for. Its been just time with Him. My worship time has been just for Him and I, not in the interest of making a set list. Our bible study time has been just about going deeper with Him, not finding scripture to share with kids in need, or looking for answers for problems they are having. There has been an intense focus between us and the Lord in the last 2 + months. We have had time to dig in and go deeper… and time to just wait.
1 Kings 19 says: A very powerful wind went before the Lord, digging into the mountain and causing landslides, but the Lord was not in the wind. After the windstorm there was an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake. 19:12 After the earthquake, there was a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. After the fire, there was a soft whisper. 19:13 When Elijah heard it, he covered his face with his robe and went out and stood at the entrance to the cave. All of a sudden a voice asked him, “Why are you here, Elijah?” 19:14 He answered, “I have been absolutely loyal to the Lord, the sovereign God, even though the Israelites have abandoned the agreement they made with you, torn down your altars, and killed your prophets with the sword. I alone am left and now they want to take my life.”
See, Elijah went through the powerful wind, the landslides, the earthquakes, the fire… He went through the loud storms, but it was not until it was QUIET that he heard from the Lord. It wasn’t until it was still that the Lord’s presence came and He spoke with Elijah and allowed him to ask the questions becuase God knew that that was when Elijah would be able to truly hear God.
No, it doesn’t make sense. But God’s ways are not our and His timing is not ours. He knows our hearts and He alone knows that our hearts and lives are FINALLY ready to go. Finally ready to lay it all down, finally ready to walk in our destiny.